Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

2004 Well, as if I really gave a shit what people thought, but here’s something to discuss that I thought might be of interest to people even if they didn’t agree with it. HO MO SEX UA LI TY . Have I scared enough people with that word yet? How about these- lesbian, gay, dyke, fairy, butch, and the ever constant if not uncreative and insulting… homo. How am I doing so far??? Well here’ something else to stir up the senses, how about Gay pride not being fit for the Parliament or the President? Now I know some of you, in your ‘orang batu’ views still find homosexuality a horrible thing (unless of course, gentlemen, it’s two supermodel blonds-correct me if I am wrong with that assumption please). But let’s skip to the 20th century. Even if we didn’t, homosexuality would still be here because it was even in this world when Shakespeare was around, and even further back then that. I find the idea that people can be so close minded as to say that homosexuality is unacceptable and a taboo,...

Ever wonder why we fall so deep in love It feels as though it was sent from above Ever wonder why we listen to that sad song Questioning ourselves if this love is wrong Ever wonder why her smile brings you bliss Wondering if you’ll ever get that one kiss Ever wonder why her touch makes you shiver Just knowing she’s around even makes you quiver Ever wonder why you feel so alone Without her with you feel unknown Ever wonder why she’s scared to be with you Just to give you the chance is all she has to do Ever wonder why things seem too hard She’s been hurt before so she’s on guard Ever wonder why nothing matters anymore When you think of her your eyes start to pour Ever wonder why things don’t work out You find yourself alone and in a pout Ever wonder why you haven’t met a special girl Love seems to through you in a giant whirl Ever wonder why you make yourself so sad You see couples and wish it was someone you had Ever wonder that just maybe it will come true You just have to patient you...

Never say I love you If you don’t really care Never talk of feelings If they aren’t really there Never hold my hand If you mean to break my heart Never say forever If you ever plan to part Never look into my eyes If you are telling me a lie Never say hello If you think you’ll say goodbye Never say that I’m THE one If you dream of more than me Never lock up my heart If you don’t have the key

Have you ever heard of that saying “You dont know what their worth until they're gone  gone”? I heard it more than I need to. I dont know who thought of this saying, but in my own opinion, you dont realize what you’ve got until its gone, you realize it right then and there. If you cant see that you dont realize the obvious. Living any life isn’t easy, no matter how much paradise you may live in. Everyone has issues, or a problem they cant find their way out of. Me on the other hand I deal with a lot of problems, day after day. You become desperate to get that OK feeling again, and who hasnt. I may never know why I, or better yet we may never know why we go through the shit we go through, but maybe its for the better, but I really cant say. No one has the answers to everything, and if we did, I dont think there would be such thing as Islam, Catholics, Christians, Jews you name it. I’m full of regret, and probably would give anything to change my mistakes, but hey I cant. Maybe ...

1999 The Power of Thought Love begins with our thoughts. We become what we think about. Loving thoughts create loving experiences and loving relationships. Affirmations can change our beliefs and thoughts about ourselves and others. If we want to love someone, we need to consider their needs and desires. Thinking about your ideal partner will help you recognize him or her when you meet him or her. The Power of Respect You cannot love anyone or anything unless you first respect them. The first person you need to respect is yourself. To begin to gain self-respect ask yourself: “What do I respect about myself?” To gain respect for others, even those you may dislike, ask yourself: “What do I respect about them?” The Power of Giving If you want to receive love, all you have to do is give it! The more love you give, the more you will receive. To love is to give of yourself, freely and unconditionally. Practice random acts of kindness. Before committing to a relationship ask not what the...

1999 I am in love with the same sex I'm a girl she's a girl why is that such a problem? Some say its just lust, but I swear its not marriage is just for heterosexual couples is all I hear I thought it was for people who are in love but society still labels me as a freak for being me I'm dreaming of a world full of diversity being gay, bisexual, lesbian, or straight is your choice why is that a prince has to save her? how come a princess can't look out for another? the way I love is like musicians love their music inside me is nothing nobody knows but her on the outside I ware rainbows and care Bears but it still doesn't justify my individuality I wake up in the mornings to a vision of her in my mind are females, is that wrong? I love her with all my heart, understand now, if not too bad, coz being me is all I know. Can you honestly tell me that's not love? then what do u call it? A game? you say what you want and I'll tell u the same being gay is not a...

There is dignity in not giving up on someone you truly love. But there is more dignity in letting them go so they can experience better love. That shows your true love because you then become unselfish and through putting others first, unconditional love grows. There is respect in fighting gallantly to win someone’s heart another time. But an even greater respect comes from fighting hard and knowing when to stop. Even though you would give anything to have that past back, that person has touched your life in a way that will make your future so much brighter. Accept that, and hold your head high, knowing you have captured their heart as well. There is courage in allowing your heart to hurt and grieve, but there is a greater courage in knowing it will be scarred. But stronger as time goes on. For whoever caused those scars has made your life better in some way and will make you better person when you marry because of what the scars taught you. Remember how many peo...