Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

My faith? Much of beauty one admires and enjoys is really our own beauty being reflected back to us. The beauty we nurture inside ourselves enables us to see beauty in the world around us. There is beauty in every direction -- in our world, in our home, our family, the work we do, the things we love, our faith, and the people in our life. Yes my faith tells me that the inner me has greater control on the outer me. How I wish my outer to be comes from within and around me. Faith is one of the most talked about things and the most lacking aspects of each of our lives today. We all like to boast it, but practicing it is surely far from happening. Heading in full speed towards the pit of hatred, for one another, religions that we don't understand and ways of life that we can't comprehend, that we're killing people solely on the basis of them not being on the path we are on. Who ever said and gave you that right? It is a free universe, with a manual as our guide. ...

I am far from having a husband but then that will never stop me from imagining now could it. Of course we all have some terms and conditions for getting something and applying something t our lives. So here goes my … if I had a life partner right now there are things which I’d tell him even though other women would find it more easy and proper to be discreet about. I for one believe that there is no veil in between a man and his wife, and so what I feel I’ll say and he should too because I’ll really want him to, no matter how negative it is. Silence is never the cure and keeping something nice too isn’t worth it. When in matrimony do as one soul in one body. Not two distinct people. A little inspiration has been taken from something I read a while ago. I have been going through the misery of no internet access at home so I just have to blog today or else I’ll choke. So my dear life partner, be ready to be bored! (or rather dear reader, I am on that route again) 1. I may al...

...Laying so closely I feel your skin rubbing and touching me Only sweat between us Feeling you kissing and pleasing me I rub your back I kiss your neck I know that you love when we touch like that I can feel you need me Feels so good to me

If I were free, like a bird in the sky, could I fly with ease? If I were a fish, deep within the sea, would I be free of my worries? If I were a lion, stalking my prey, would I fear none? If I were a saint, Up in the mountains, Would I be free of all my sins? If I were god, Up in the heavens, Would I guide everyone? If I were a devil, Roaming idle minds, Could I harm everyone? If I were dead, Hugged by the earth, Is this the end? If I were a human, Born to live and to let live, Would I be great? But I am the soul, The essence of life, Does it matter, If I am a bird, lion or a human? I am the soul, So see not my surface, For I am within…

" Sexiness or Physical attractiveness is the perception of the physical traits of an individual as being aesthetically pleasing or beautiful. The term often implies sexual attractiveness." " Sexual attractiveness or sex appeal can refer to anything which has the ability to attract the sexual or erotic interest of a person. The attraction can be to the physical or other quality or trait of a person, or to such quality in the context in which it appears" When is the time when you feel sexy? When is the time when you feel the most attractive person in the whole universe? When is the time when you feel that the clothes you have on could not exist? When is the time when you feel like you attract the opposite sex most? Would you dare to share?

Think of the torture life gifts us, Does it feel it takes away our zest? Think of the feelings that boil within, Does it know, light is not to be seen? Crossing walks that nestle our bonds, Does it see, it may last or it won't? Crazy is this struggle, tangling hearts, Does it beat, to hear the loud laughs? I have reached here, more to move on, But moments aren't generous though, I decide to spill expressions from core, But life won't change, more to simply haul.. How to end this epitome? How to engulf what's not? How to empathize this soul? How to employ more joy? Yes, am tired, tired of all.. Tired of saying it, singing it.. Tired of feeling so small... . ..of compromising, ...of being shun, ...of sacrificing, ...of being the one, ...of giving up, ...of not trying, ...of accepting fate, ...of self-lying, ...of loving all, ...of being hated, ...of being friendly, ...of being under-stated, ...of crying alone, ...of smiling fake, ...of giving joy to all, ...of my hopes at...

"The are moments that mark your life, moments when you realize nothing will ever be the same. And time is divided into two part, before this and after this." And then you feel butterflies coming to you and making your stomach their new home. And then you feel excitement and amazement in single thing you see, you embrace the air around you, because as you breath you breath differently, because as you close your eyes you still can see the world around you, because as you speak, you speak as you would love the world you live in. There is no buts. As you create your new world, you invite only goodness and greatness. You know you are growing better and richer. You know that the old world and the old you is the past. As you mark the thick line between your two worlds, you define each of them, what's important you consciously define yourself from the beginning. I've heard that we are born twice. The second time when we choose the world we live in. Have you alr...

Yesterday morning when I woke up I was still pissed off. So I decided do stop by his house and give him a piece of my mind. I was going to yell, scream, hit him, make him feel like shit. I had it all planned out. I drove to his house and rang the doorbell. He opened the door with a surprised look on his face. " Hey...?" he said, and gave me a hug. Damn, I thought. Why'd he have to hug me? I couldn't hit him then. I couldn't yell or cry or be angry with him at all. He has such influence over me it's disturbing. We stood on his porch and had a big talk. I can't remember everything exactly but I told him how horrible he made me feel sometimes. How I felt like he was trying to replace me and memories of me with his girlfriend. I want him to have new memories, but I want him to remember old ones, too. I know at one point I started crying and he hugged me close to him. Then he told me that I made him feel like shit, too. A while ago. I told him to tell me every...

I realize that homophobia is still alive and well, but at least stop acting homophobic when you're not. It's so casual and socially accepted to hate on homosexuals. It's wrong and it makes you look like an idiot when you do it. It's just as ... bad as hating someone because of their race or who they choose to be. Sexual orientation should not be such a big deal and for those who are so incredibly passionate about hating gay people, what are you so afraid of? If you think that being gay is contagious and you're terrified of catching the gay bug, then you're probably gay. At one in the same time simple and profound, it makes clear that being gay is just as normal as being heterosexual and that human beings should, within fair laws, be able to lead their lives as they please without fear of attack. Hate is unhealthy. Ignorance is unattractive. Live and let live. I QUOTE “When you were born.. you were born alone.. and when you die.. you’ll die...

How can I convince you what you see is real Who am I to blame you for doubting what you feel I was always reachin', you were just a girl I knew I took for granted the friend I have in you I was living for a dream, Loving for a moment Taking on the world, That was just my style Now I look into your eyes I can see forever, The search is over You were with me all the while Can we last forever, will we fall apart At times it's so confusing, these questions of the heart You followed me through changes, and patiently you'd wait Till I came to my senses, through some miracle of fate Now the miles stretch out behind me loves that I have lost Broken hearts lie victims of the game Then good luck it finally stuck like lightning from the blue Every highway leading me back to you Now at last I hold you, now all is said and done The search has come full circle, our destinies are one So if you ever loved me show me that you give a damn You'll know for certain the man I really am I was...

I could have gone home early today but i didnt. I didnt because the only thing i could think about was that i wanted to see you and the only instance whereby i could conceive this happening- where i might get a chance to see you- was if you decided to take the train home and we would happen to cross paths. So i stood in front of the train station tonight, waiting like some kind of fool. Fool because i didnt even know what i was waiting for. For you to come down the escalator? To see you? Would we even speak? I didn't even know if you were in the city today. I didnt know if you would even take the train if by some chance you were in the city. For all i knew you could have been at home or anywhere else for that matter. So i stood like a prize idiot, waiting there by myself. Not even knowing what i was waiting for. Here is my confession, I’m Weak. So for maybe a minute or an hour or for however long it takes before my pride take over once again, i’m going to be okay wit...

It started with you touching me, in places that you shouldn’t have. You told me that it was alright, then why did it feel so bad? The world for me was joy and bliss, until the day you started this. I hated myself through and through, when you made me do those things to you. If grown-ups do such horrid things, I’d rather be a child forever. But then, if people like you exist, will a child be safe ever? Why did you do this to me? Why did you rape my innocence? You killed my body, soul and mind, you robbed me of all my sense. I tried to shout, I tried to scream, I wish it was just a ghastly dream. But the scars that you left on my soul, will never again let me be whole. I lost faith in faith, trust in trust, the day you turned my body to dust. At first I tried to resist it all, but gradually I embraced my fall. It makes me shudder, it makes me cry. Why didn’t you just let me die? I wish I could undo all the pain. I wish I was pure once again. My mind is a mess; my life is in chains...

There is..... only one religion… the religion of Love one race… the Human race one language… the language of the Heart one wealth… the wealth of Generosity one color… the color of Conscience  one hatred… the hatred of Self one food… the food of Bliss one blood… the blood of Equality one opportunity… the opportunity of Now one revenge… the revenge of Compassion one breath…the breath of Truth one health… the health of the Mind one cure… the cure of Humor one strength… the strength of Character one beauty… the beauty of the Soul  one family… the family of the World one secret… the secret of Simplicity one battle… the battle of Survival one peace… the peace of Wisdom one God… the God in You one certainty… the certainty of Death one way… the way of Life Why can’t we all live life loving and caring for one another… it’s easy isn't it… but why is it so difficult for some people that they make so many others hurt every day? ...

It is so hard to focus on the now when you think about the future . We are constantly thinking about the have-nots, the wants, and the dreams we want to come true. I dream of places to travel to, things to accomplish, even recipes to create – and yet, with all this daydreaming much of the tasks I have to accomplish for day to day get swept aside in my eagerness for the future. Any given moment I’ll be thinking of travelling to Rio de Janeiro, ordering promotional materials for real estate, decorating my apartment in style, or what I’ll be blogging about later on at night. I constantly push the things I should be doing out of my way to make room in my head for the future. I don’t think my head fully understands that there will be no future if I don’t complete my given tasks today . It is hard to change your mindset from future to now . At least for me. And it’s too overwhelming to think of both at once. Before any of my dreams come true I have to make some money. In order t...

So many people So many dreams So many heart beats So many yearns and desires So many nights full of tears So many days full of searchings So many paths to take 8 billion people 8 billion souls and sometimes we just need one. ♥

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Always knew that when we said goodbye, It wouldn't last forever, Always thought that I'd run into you, And we'd get back together... Now you're here just like I imagined, But never once did it cross my mind that you could move on... You found someone, It breaks my heart, Coz you're so inlove... I wish that my touch made you smile just like that, And I wish that I had you the way that she has. Coz I still remember the love I left behind, I wish I was her and you were mine. I think somebody's try'na talk to me, But I can't hear a word they're sayin', All I can do is stare at you, I don't even know why I'm stayin'. Never thought I'd cry to see you happy, It's just I thought that your happiness was right here with me. I know we're through, It's no use, Still I can't help but feel... The way that you hold her I wish that was me, There's no place on earth that I'd rather be. Coz I still remember the love I left b...

Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken . Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what; maybe you’ll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, or a friend who is mean, nice, encouraging; but there is also a chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, is the person who is far from you but still trails close behind you. Yes, This is me and you dear! Remember the dream in black and gold? And you now say, ‘knowing her she can make anything up?’ all I can say is, ‘you still make me proud’ .

Hey "bestest" friend. You know who you are. I'm just writing this to say that I've been thinking a lot lately and I realize this is going nowhere. We can never really talk heart to heart and that's what I want. Communication is just really important to me. Although it's kind of hard, I kept trying and I sometimes worked but never for a long time. It's hard for me to commit without you. So please, tell me if you really do like me, so I that I will know if my efforts are worth for anything at all. Don't hint some remark that could possibly be known as flirting. Because that gets me confused and mad. For all I know, you could be just really friendly and has not thought of us to be more than friends. Your actions and words speak otherwise... And with all I know, I've been liking you for a few years now. And I can't wait any longer. I need answers. So here's to the possibilities. Either you end this unknown and tell me how you real...

When you grow up, one of the biggest lessons you learn is that you don’t have as many friends as you previously believed. Those friends, who you once thought were the most important people in your life, eventually go away. The phone calls stop. The e-mails get much more infrequent. Soon, your relationship is reduced to “liking” their Facebook status updates and occasionally receiving a mass text (i.e. “Happy New Year! I love you all!”). Remember your friend who used to sleep over all the time in elementary school? She’s living in Florida now, with her husband and new baby. She might remember how you wore “best friends forever” necklaces in 1995, but she also barely remembers your last name. Remember your close friends in high school who hung out at your house practically every single day? You told your deepest and darkest secrets to them. You swore you would always be friends. Well, they’ve scattered across the Midwest, married or single, living lives that don’t invo...

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It is FRIDAY THE 13th TODAY :D May we have more celebrations and reasons to smile today and every day! Pour some Creativi TEA - Hospitali TEA - Tranquili TEA - Sereni TEA into our lives every day! And I started to write a post last night and as my luck would have it, I hadn’t saved it and the electricity went off. As irritated I was and discontinued writing it, I was also less eager to start all over again. So the 13 things of this week which are so “OMG that is so true” or “OMG that is so me” without delay are as follows: (this will be quick because of what happened last night – Yes I get agitated and irritated when interrupted. This isn’t the first time it has happened and I hate it all in all.) So much of investing some quality time in a post where words just kept coming and I had to think very little to express myself :P But never the less, the post has to come now, so without any delay and going insane any further I shall get right to the point. 1. I wish I could record t...