Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

I've never been so sure of anything. It's like, I've finally come to understand the difference between dread and fear, and those nervous butterflies that everyone keeps talking about. You want to know how I know? Because when I'm with you, I feel those butterflies fluttering around inside of me. But they don't make me want to run the other direction, like the fear has done before. If anything, they make me want to press myself as close as I can to you- skin to skin, heartbeat to heartbeat, because when I do that, the butterflies quiet their wings for a bit and they let me feel you. Feel all of you. And it's in those moments that I realize that the fear I feel is only surface level. It's the kind of fear you feel right before you turn on a bright light after hours of being in the dark- just a few seconds before you open your eyes to see something so beautiful, something you couldn't see before. For the first time in my life, I don't want ...

Haunt me In my dreams If you please You're breath is with me now and always It's like a breeze And if you want to sleep I'll be quiet Like an angel As quiet as your soul could be If you only knew...

L ittle did I make out O ften I did doubt V erily no loss E xtinguishes a lovers gloss C ome away fears A lways and forever N eedless are the years N ever will a tear E ver make you fear V ouch with me a swear E ven if it is severe R eward me a vow dear D eath calls me away I llusion this is not… E ternal love will forever play

When you realize you want to spend the rest of your life with somebody.. You want the rest of your life to start As soon as possible... … You Met Me At A Very Strange Time In My Life

We all have questions that might be left unanswered at some point of life. Questions that make us think. Questions that make us wonder. Sometimes we are content with being just okay in life because we do not really know what real happiness means. Because we do not have anything to compare with what we have. We feel good. Right. We even admit we are happy. We do. And we are. Or we think so. But only till the moment when we happen to be really happy. As in overwhelmingly happy. As in fairy tale type happy. Except for the happily ever after part. Because at some point we realize this moment of true happiness won’t last forever, will it? You wish you could save a moment… because after some time it’ll be gone forever. You’ll never have that feeling again and you’ll always want to get it back whenever things go bad. Do you want to experience extreme happiness when you know it can be gone? It will be gone. At some point. Don’t you think it’s better to be extremely ha...

… In You They ask me how I feel And if my love is real And how I know I’ll make it through. And they, they look at me and frown, They’d like to drive me from this town, They don’t want me around ‘Cause I believe in you. They show me to the door, They say don’t come back no more ‘Cause I don’t be like they’d like me to, And I walk out on my own A thousand miles from home But I don’t feel alone ‘Cause I believe in you. I believe in you even through the tears and the laughter, I believe in you even though we be apart. I believe in you even on the morning after. Oh, when the dawn is nearing Oh, when the night is disappearing Oh, this feeling is still here in my heart. Don’t let me drift too far, Keep me where you are Where I will always be renewed. And that which you’ve given me today Is worth more than I could pay And no matter what they say I believe in you. I believe in you when winter turn to summer, I believe in you when white turn to black, I believe in you even thou...

Here I am on a very normal day with normal feelings and yet not quite normal. Technically speaking it is a very normal day, I cannot stop thinking about her and hence it is getting to me that is why I will have to pour. I haven’t had the opportunity to play me lately. It is not the faking that I am up to, but I am at the verge of thinking, what is it that I really want her to know that she will come running and take me away. Somehow I miss something or someone terribly in my life. Everyday when I wake up. I try to tell myself, tomorrow will be a much better day. I still dream and I still believe in those dreams. It will never end, it is just like my faith in the unseen God. Love is religion for me. I am actually very religious in terms of my belief. A staunch believer of my own faith. I believe that love will find its course if it is meant to be. If not, then it is totally God who has decided the other way. You and me, we can love what we love and believe in having it on...

I don't know what you smoke Or countries you been too If you speak any other languages Other than your own, I'd like to meet you I don't know if you drive If you love the ground beneath you I don't know if you write letters or you panic on the phone I'd like to call you all the same, If you want to I am game I don't know if you can swim If the sea is any draw for you If your better in the morning or when the sun goes down I'd like to call you I don't know if you can dance If the thought ever occurred to you If you eat what you've been given or you push it around your plate I'd like to cook for you all the same I would want to I am game If you walk my way, I could keep my head We could creep away In the dark Or maybe now We could shoot it down anyway I don't know if you read novels or the magazines If you love the hand that feeds you I assume that your heart's been bruised I'd like to know you You don't know if I can draw at all O...

I was thinking today about how much power we have in influencing the perception we give off to people and their unthinking and unfeeling essences. I think it is pretty easy to sway most people, and you will find plenty who will make a lose statement and that will spread like wild fire and sometimes even best friends fall for that sort of drama. In no doubt, if we’re still breathing, we’re even changing, but there are parts of us that stay constant. I’m always going to be too honest, awkwardly insecure, and appeasing [p.s. don’t try to test me or else I can be confrontational] Curious how I think? No one knows me, but they never give up the challenge of doing so. It really excites me, I am a mystery, a puzzle piece with a million puzzles within and yet I try everyday to speak out a code, which might just help trigger some correct responses to the research of Devilicious Devil. I think with my life open. I use my senses, all of them to look, to taste, to hear, to smell, to ...

‘What is beauty?’ I ask you. You take my hand and lead me to the mirror. You point at the reflection of you and I and you make me smile. ‘What is beauty?’ you ask me. You look at me and smile your witty smile and instantly that ties a knot in my tummy, make me feel angelic. I look down and in silence you know what I mean. ‘Beauty,’ you say, ‘is when you look stunningly beautiful without any makeup clad on your face’ , I turn around grab a Vogue magazine and say ‘It’s when paper-thin models expose themselves on the covers and insides knowing that men like you will drool and die feeling them in their imaginations.’ ‘Beauty,’ you say, ‘is an unmarried girl, untouched by the vulgarities of life and other human beings’ . So I say ‘you mean since your hand has touched every inch of me I am not beautiful anymore? I am not the perfect flower in your field and I don’t have what it takes to woo you into a land of dreams and fantasies?’ ‘Beauty,’ you conclude, ‘is perfection.’ ...

Suddenly I get this feeling My mind draws a blank My hands are slightly shaking My heart begins to race I feel like I'm losing control I'm nervous inside and out I have an unexplainable feeling I wish I could figure this out These butterflies inside of me Keep fluttering all throughout I thought they were gone for good I didn't know they could come out It must be the way You get to me like you do The way you make me feel The way I love you like I do.

What day is it? And in what month? This clock never seemed so alive I can't keep up and I can't back down I've been losing so much time 'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all other people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you One of the things that I want to say just aren't coming out right I'm tripping on words You've got my head spinning I don't know where to go from here 'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to prove And it's you and me and all other people And I don't know why, I can't keep my eyes off of you There's something about you now I can't quite figure out Everything she does is beautiful Everything she does is right 'Cause it's you and me and all of the people with nothing to do Nothing to lose And it's you and me and all other people And I don...

Motion of the second's hand of the clock, The only sign of time slipping by I stare aimlessly out of my window Mulling over the lessons taught by life. No one really cares; No one does... I care, the road tells me And, I know the road means it. It has always been there, silently listening When I had something to share. Without saying a single word, It showed to me that it cared. Tired and, with an empty heart It still never failed to give resting place To the homeless. The widespread sky, their tent The hard tarmac, their bed. The road showed it cared even for those who hurt it Thus slept the workers next to the road they dug The trees say, "We care" And, I know they mean it... Roots exploring the darkness, So that the leaves see the light The roots spread underneath So that the branches can seemingly touch the sky. Each leaf, each branch sways gently As the breeze passes through it "We care" they tell me, Trying hard to bring slightest smile to m...

Close your eyes and, take a deep breath Feel the moment, me and the togetherness Forget everything, the work, the pain and the chase Let us be together all day in a tight embrace... Life goes on and on, The constant ticking of the clock, Silence it for a while, stop the ticking, Let us run away from time and, enjoy the feeling... Take off your shoes, Let us take a walk in the moonlight Let us live in the present, the moment And let go everything from the past, the pain, the fight. Let the waves of the ocean wash away All the bad that we carry within... Let me show you how much I care Place a kiss on my lips and, let the moment begin. Let us get carried away, Run along the shore like the wild wind Let us make a new start together Leave the past behind. Close your eyes and, listen to what your heart says You will smile as you remember the old days Open your eyes to the new world in front of you The one, which is filled with my love for you.

Desperate for changing, Starving for truth, I'm closer to where I started, I’m chasing after you I’m falling even more in love with you, Letting go of all I’ve held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you Forgetting all I'm lacking Completely incomplete I’ll take your invitation You take all of me Now I'm falling even more in love with you Letting go of all I’ve held onto I'm standing here until you make me move I'm hanging by a moment here with you I'm living for the only thing I know I'm running and I'm quite sure where to go And I don't know what I'm diving into Just hanging by a moment here with you There's nothing else to lose There's nothing else to find There's nothing in the world That could change my mind There is nothing else There is nothing else There is nothing else Desperate for changing Starving for truth I'm closer to where I star...

Someday you'll see, the love behind those eyes. That they weren't lying you will realize. someday you'll value the words she said. For they weren't mere letters, they bore her heart beats instead. Someday you'll feel her gentle kiss. when your lips are parched, in search of the perfect bliss. Someday as you walk, you'll long for her footsteps. You'll miss those imprints in sand, In your loneliness. Someday her single tear To you,would mean a lot. When She'd be away, defeated in the battle she fought. Someday you'd wish, you hadn't walked away. That she'd still be with you by your side, this day.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be? First of all I know she won’t but hypothetically speaking, I guess I would forgive her and assume that there was something missing in my love that made her go search for it somewhere else. 2. If you can have a dream come true, what would it be? I had always dreamed of settling abroad with someone I really love, be part of a family of my own with her and be happy with our life. 3. Whose butt would you like to kick? Nobody’s. I am not a violent person at all and I don’t keep grudges against anyone no matter what they have done to me. Forgive and you will be forgiven Allah says and I believe in it strongly. “ If you forgive those who sin against you, your heavenly God will forgive you. But if you refuse to forgive others, God will not forgive your sins.” 4. Why do you blog? Well, I started the blog for a reason but now I blog for a completely different reason. The original reason is irrelevant now. But now, I blog...

Selective Amnesia We humans are pretty pathetic at remembering what we ought to remember, but we are quite good at ‘regurgitating’ what we shouldn’t. In other words, we forget what we must not, but we can’t seem to forget what we should . What’s the deal-lah people? Maybe our memory cells are controlling us like puppets on strings? Maybe we retain more of what we shouldn’t in comparison to what we should. Think about it. We remember the hurt more than we remember kindness. We remember the evil done to us by someone more than we remember goodness. We remember the tears more than the laughs. We remember the cuts more than the caresses. We forget the good people on this Earth but we can’t seem to forget the baddies . I Remember… Why am I saying all this? I realized that people choose to forget or choose to remember, depending on what suits them the most. Selective Amnesia it is. Here are some real-life experiences that I’ve come across: * Some people want me in their...

THE WAY YOU LOVE ME, I NEVER WANT ANYTHING TO REPLACE IT, TIME AND AGAIN BEING IN YOUR ARMS, HAS JUST BEEN ENOUGH TO HEAL ALL PRICKS. THE WAY YOU MAKE UP, NO WOMAN COULD EVER TAKE YOUR PLACE, JUST BEING IN YOUR ARMS, IS ENOUGH FOR A LIFE LONG HAPPINESS. THE WAY YOU CUDDLE AND CARESS , THERE IS NO COMPARATIVE, THE SENSATIONS THAT STIR UP CANNOT BE HYPED BY ANYONE THAN U MY BELOVED. THE WAY YOU ARE MY MAN, I WANT TO SUBMIT TO YOU INCESSANTLY, JUST LOVE THE SENSITIVITY I GET, HAVING YOU PLAY YOUR TRICKS ON ME. THE WAY YOU CARE, I WOULDN'T WANT ANYONE TO TAKE YOUR PLACE, ALTHOUGH YOU BOTHER ME AT TIMES, BUT THAT CAN'T BE A REASON FOR YOUR DISDAIN. THE WAY YOU KISS, YOU KNOW ME SO PERFECTLY, THE INCHES OF ME THAT YOU'VE EXPLORED, I WOULD LOVE TO HAVE YOUR LIPS PECKING. THE WAY YOU MAKE ME OOZE , THE FEELING COMES BACK AGAIN AND AGAIN, NOT KNOWING EXACTLY WHERE FROM, BUT I PRAY I GET THEM FROM YOU ALWAYS. THE WAY YOU ARE MY COMPANION , I PRAY I HAVE YOU FOR MY SPOUSE, I NEVER W...

So I am here with all the mush put together, just because I am on an over dose of the goodness of love and togetherness. Yes kissing has become a passion and an obsession and even while she is miles away, when she calls I can’t stop mwahing her. She just excites me so madly. She keeps telling me how much I am wanted and how much she wants to complete life for me and all I do is groan and moan ;) without really being in the act. Sigh! The wait is tireless and yet so hyperactive. Fills in every emotion for me. And though at this moment I am imagining us in a hot tub together, I am also in the mood to scribble a small poem to commemorate the kiss we shared and will keep sharing in times to come. Love you sweetheart and no matter where you are, my kisses will find a way to you! Lol! Let Madness Set in and Free us all! The blazing skies surrender, The crashing waves halt, Kiss me Deep Oh my Love! Breathe on my lips our very last. It tickles me often...

I’ll let you know where my mind is drifting lately…. Paris as always, is strongly on my mind. With my upcoming trip (in July-August, which is really a million days away!) waking up beside you would be wonderful, spending the days with you no one to bother us, all the activities and things to do.. not forgetting moonlite walk on the beach.. =) But, imagine if the trip we plan - Paris! all I can think of is what we’ll be doing and what we’ll be eating…Baguettes with cheese and wine for lunch, dancing in the moonlight, taking a boat ride in the canals and fresh, warm butter croissants from a boulangerie for breakfast. An old country house with a gorgeous kitchen, a wonderful dining room, a large sitting room and gardens upon gardens – a place where our daughter could get married in the backyard, a place to come home to. I’ve been reading a lot lately. A lot of books about traditions and food and homes full of love, and I started having thoughts… of how nice ...

It happens randomly. One moment you are there, in the midst of the traffic, the life and the melody, involved in everything, laughing, happy, working, connected and making merry. Disconnected Then suddenly. As if a Network connection drops and the sign blinks ‘Service Disconnected’. You can’t quite figure out while you are in the middle of the happening but as soon as the line drops you try to rewind and see. I do it too, a lot of times, I try to figure out the reason for the season and why the impact is for a lifetime! People are talking and smiling and coming into my life. I don’t pay attention to the reasons of their connection with me but as soon as they start to walk out and the goodbyes and tears are shed, I come face to face with a reality but I can’t seem to understand why it touches me the way it did and suddenly there is no pulse, there is no tone, it is just that sign again ‘Service Disconnected!’ I have tried to put together the voices of the parts of me. They tell me it wi...

a sharing I couldn't deny i love you also means i love you more than anyone loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, & also, i love you in a way that no one loves you, or has loved you, or will love you, & also, i love you in a way that I love no one else, & never have loved anyone else, & never will love anyone else.

Your taste is the one and only flavor I will ever truly need. My tastebuds want yours to taste me too now and forever.

Waking up in the middle of the night for no reason, shifting under the blankets and feeling the heat of the person next to you. You turn around and see them in their most peaceful, innocent, and vulnerable state. They breathe as though the weight of the world lays on anyone’s shoulder but their own. You smile and kiss their face gently before turning back around and somehow, an involuntary grin forms on your face. Just before you drift off to sleep, you feel an arm wrap around your waist and you know it doesn’t get any better than this.