Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

When the stars line up And you catch a break People think you're lucky But you know its grace It can happen so fast Or a little bit late Timing is everything You know I've had close calls When it could've been me I was young when I learned just how fragile life can be I lost friends of mine I guess it wasn't my time Timing is everything And I could've been the child that God took home,  And I would've been one more unfinished song  And when it seems a rhyme is hard to find That's when one comes along Just in time I remember that day When our eyes first met You ran into the building to get out of the rain Cause you were soaking wet And as I held the door  You wanted to know my name Timing is everything And I could've been another minute late And you'd never would've crossed my path that day And when it seems true love is hard to find That's when love comes...

I never had no one I could count on I've been let down so many times I was tired of hurting So tired of searching 'Til you walked into my life It was a feeling I'd never known And for the first time I didn't feel alone You're more than a lover There could never be another To make me feel the way you do Oh we just get closer I fall in love all over Every time I look at you I don't know where I'd be Without you here with me Life with you makes perfect sense You're my best friend You stand by me And you believe in me Like nobody ever has When my world goes crazy You're right there to save me You make me see how much I have And I still tremble When we touch And oh the look in your eyes When we make love

I know how to hold a grudge I can send a bridge up in smoke And I can't count the people I've let down, the hearts I've broke You ain't gotta dig too deep If you wanna find some dirt on me I'm learning who you've been Ain't who you've got to be It's gonna be an uphill climb Honey I won't lie I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil I’m cleaning up my act little by little I’m getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get But I’m better than I used to be I’ve pinned a lot of demons to the ground I’ve got a few old habits left But there’s still one or two I might need you to help me get Standing in the rain so long has left me with a little rust But put some faith in me And someday you’ll see There’s a diamond under all this dust

Lies and rumors are what brought us here today Lies and rumors are not true what more can I say If you think for one second that I believe in this crap All I can say is that the devil has you in a trap People will sit and talk about you behind your back Because they don't want to see you happy and that's a fact If you can sit there and tell me that you love me Then you can sit there and tell me what you see If you see me with you in your life forever Then why don't you want us to be together When I tell you that I love and care for you I'm telling you this because I know my love is true If you'll just open your heart you will know How far I am willing to let my love show I am willing to wait for you my whole life Just to show you know why you make me feel so alive It's because God is showing me what I really feel inside He's shown me how to not let my love hide Why can't you just tell me how you really feel So I w...

You probably don't realize how important you are to me. There are times when the one thing that helps me get through the day... is thinking of you. You bring happiness to me when the world seems to be wearing a frown. When things don't quite go as planned and my world seems upside down, my thoughts of you help to set things right again. You are so important to me. You make me think, you make me laugh, you make me feel alive. You put things in perspective for me. You provide support and encouragement, you lessen my worries, and you increase my joys. If my life were a puzzle, you would be the one piece that was a perfect fit. Every day... I think of you. And I've got a million smiles to prove it.

Have you thought about it? I know this post seems like a bit of a ramble but go along with it.. Why is it that we hurt the ones that are closest to us? And cause so much pain? Or why is it that the ones we love are the ones who leave the worst wounds? Think about it.. Is it because they are the ones we love? Is it because we love them? Or is it because of expectations? High expectations? Different expectations? Lack of communication? Taking each other for granted? So what next? Do we stop having expectations from those who are nearest and dearest to us? If we stop having expectations from them, who else can expect from? Can we improve communication? How much is ideal? I mean... you don't want to over do it, do you? What about taking people for granted? We could learn to notice and appreciate people more.. Hmm... I guess the bottom line is that most human beings (close or otherwise) are not reliable when it comes to fulfilling expectations. Everyone has a different idea on wh...

If I were a month, I’d be Desirable December . If I were a day of the week, I’d be Witty Wednesday . If I were a time of day, I’d be Scintillating 6 a.m . If I were a planet, I’d be Vengeful Venus . If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Dazzling Butterfly . If I were a direction, I’d be Naughty North-west . If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Quiescent Queen Size Bed . If I were a liquid, I’d be the Caramel Latte . If I were a gemstone, I’d be the  Stunning Sapphire . If I were a tree, I’d be a Waiflike Willow . If I were a tool, I’d be a Magical Mirror . If I were a flower, I’d be a Pompous Pink Tulip . If I were a kind of weather, I’d be Whimsical Wind . If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Vibrating Violin . If I were a word, I’d be Luscious Love . If I were a color, I’d be Rapturous Red . If I were an emotion, I’d be Passionate Pleasure . If I were a fruit, I’d be a Stimulating Strawberry . If I were a sound, I’d be a Bashful Baby’s Giggle...

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