Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

To live a glorious life you don't have to have everything that a person may desire, you just have to be able to make the best out of each situation. Instead of living your life waiting for things to be the way that you want them to, and being frustrated because you don't have everything that you desire, be happy that you have enough right now to make things better for the future. Handle life with a confident demeanor, an attitude that will help you to convince yourself if you continue to think positively, then positive things will happen. You will never be happy if you don't think positive thoughts. If at most times you spend time angry, unsatisfied, discouraged, and unexcited about life, your days will be discouraging, unsatisfying, and you will be easily angered. Your best days are yet to come, be thankful, and appreciative for the life you have yet to live!

Realizing That You Don't Need Certain People There are always going to be certain people within our lives that will slow us down from our forward progression if we choose to allow them to do so. As the quote states there is a point in many people's lives that they must realize that instead of chasing the ones who ignore them, that they must love the ones who love them completely. Instead of trying to fix everything the way that they want it to be in life, that they have to work with life the way that it is, and even work with variables that they would rather not work with. It is not about giving up on people, but it is more about being able to tell the difference between giving up and moving on, and stopping others from preventing their own lives to blossom. Not everything in life is for you, and not every situation is for you to fix, sometimes you must let things be, move on, and learn how to let go.

If you allow for your past to break you, and stop you from continuing to become a better person so that you may leave some sort of impact on it, it most certainly will. Allowing yourself to be beat up by your own thoughts, mistakes, and any other decisions that you regret having made in your past can be very destructive to the rest of your life. Not being able to let go of the past can cause stress, anger, and tension to rise and build within ourselves, until we ultimately are no longer able to sustain holding everything inside, and it erupts from within us. Don't let your past stop you from living in the present moment. Take advantage of each day my making it better than the day before! Seize every moment you possibly can, and remember its not about who you used to be, its about who the world sees you as by the time you are gone!

All my life I've looked for angels. All this time I've searched for signs. Though I've turned a corner, you're standing before me. You're not what I thought I might find. I've never been shakin' I've never been confused. I've always projected all my affections in only directions I choose. In all my intentions and all my best plans now come to rest in your hands. If I could fly. If I could soar. If I could rise up to heaven and unlock that door I might finally stop this world spins around. I would just to be with you now. If could find the key into your heart and unlock that door, I might finally stop all this spinning around If I could just be with you now I always believed I was solidly grounded All my assumptions come tumbling down If I fly. If I could find the key If I could soar. If I could rise up to heaven into your heart unlock that door. I would finally stop the spinning ar...

When the stars line up And you catch a break People think you're lucky But you know its grace It can happen so fast Or a little bit late Timing is everything You know I've had close calls When it could've been me I was young when I learned just how fragile life can be I lost friends of mine I guess it wasn't my time Timing is everything And I could've been the child that God took home,  And I would've been one more unfinished song  And when it seems a rhyme is hard to find That's when one comes along Just in time I remember that day When our eyes first met You ran into the building to get out of the rain Cause you were soaking wet And as I held the door  You wanted to know my name Timing is everything And I could've been another minute late And you'd never would've crossed my path that day And when it seems true love is hard to find That's when love comes...

I never had no one I could count on I've been let down so many times I was tired of hurting So tired of searching 'Til you walked into my life It was a feeling I'd never known And for the first time I didn't feel alone You're more than a lover There could never be another To make me feel the way you do Oh we just get closer I fall in love all over Every time I look at you I don't know where I'd be Without you here with me Life with you makes perfect sense You're my best friend You stand by me And you believe in me Like nobody ever has When my world goes crazy You're right there to save me You make me see how much I have And I still tremble When we touch And oh the look in your eyes When we make love

I know how to hold a grudge I can send a bridge up in smoke And I can't count the people I've let down, the hearts I've broke You ain't gotta dig too deep If you wanna find some dirt on me I'm learning who you've been Ain't who you've got to be It's gonna be an uphill climb Honey I won't lie I ain't no angel I still got a few more dances with the devil I’m cleaning up my act little by little I’m getting there I can finally stand the man in the mirror I see I ain’t as good as I’m gonna get But I’m better than I used to be I’ve pinned a lot of demons to the ground I’ve got a few old habits left But there’s still one or two I might need you to help me get Standing in the rain so long has left me with a little rust But put some faith in me And someday you’ll see There’s a diamond under all this dust

Lies and rumors are what brought us here today Lies and rumors are not true what more can I say If you think for one second that I believe in this crap All I can say is that the devil has you in a trap People will sit and talk about you behind your back Because they don't want to see you happy and that's a fact If you can sit there and tell me that you love me Then you can sit there and tell me what you see If you see me with you in your life forever Then why don't you want us to be together When I tell you that I love and care for you I'm telling you this because I know my love is true If you'll just open your heart you will know How far I am willing to let my love show I am willing to wait for you my whole life Just to show you know why you make me feel so alive It's because God is showing me what I really feel inside He's shown me how to not let my love hide Why can't you just tell me how you really feel So I w...

You probably don't realize how important you are to me. There are times when the one thing that helps me get through the day... is thinking of you. You bring happiness to me when the world seems to be wearing a frown. When things don't quite go as planned and my world seems upside down, my thoughts of you help to set things right again. You are so important to me. You make me think, you make me laugh, you make me feel alive. You put things in perspective for me. You provide support and encouragement, you lessen my worries, and you increase my joys. If my life were a puzzle, you would be the one piece that was a perfect fit. Every day... I think of you. And I've got a million smiles to prove it.

Have you thought about it? I know this post seems like a bit of a ramble but go along with it.. Why is it that we hurt the ones that are closest to us? And cause so much pain? Or why is it that the ones we love are the ones who leave the worst wounds? Think about it.. Is it because they are the ones we love? Is it because we love them? Or is it because of expectations? High expectations? Different expectations? Lack of communication? Taking each other for granted? So what next? Do we stop having expectations from those who are nearest and dearest to us? If we stop having expectations from them, who else can expect from? Can we improve communication? How much is ideal? I mean... you don't want to over do it, do you? What about taking people for granted? We could learn to notice and appreciate people more.. Hmm... I guess the bottom line is that most human beings (close or otherwise) are not reliable when it comes to fulfilling expectations. Everyone has a different idea on wh...

If I were a month, I’d be Desirable December . If I were a day of the week, I’d be Witty Wednesday . If I were a time of day, I’d be Scintillating 6 a.m . If I were a planet, I’d be Vengeful Venus . If I were a sea animal, I’d be a Dazzling Butterfly . If I were a direction, I’d be Naughty North-west . If I were a piece of furniture, I’d be a Quiescent Queen Size Bed . If I were a liquid, I’d be the Caramel Latte . If I were a gemstone, I’d be the  Stunning Sapphire . If I were a tree, I’d be a Waiflike Willow . If I were a tool, I’d be a Magical Mirror . If I were a flower, I’d be a Pompous Pink Tulip . If I were a kind of weather, I’d be Whimsical Wind . If I were a musical instrument, I’d be a Vibrating Violin . If I were a word, I’d be Luscious Love . If I were a color, I’d be Rapturous Red . If I were an emotion, I’d be Passionate Pleasure . If I were a fruit, I’d be a Stimulating Strawberry . If I were a sound, I’d be a Bashful Baby’s Giggle...

Sesungguhnya aku rindu kamu Rindunya aku… Rindu pada usikanmu… Rindu pada gurau sendamu… Rindu pada tanya khabar darimu tentang diriku… Rindu pada suaramu yang mampu mengusik jiwaku… Sesungguhnya aku rindu kamu Rindu pada wajahmu yang membuatkan aku tertanya- tanya… Kenapa dirimu kelihatan murung… Sukar sekali untuk mengukir senyuman… Seperti menyimpan 1001 rahsia dihati… Seperti di bebani masalah yang berat untuk dipikul… Ingin sahaja aku menjadi pendengar setia pada setiap masalahmu itu… Tapi sudi kah dikau berkongsi duka dengan diri ku? Sesungguhnya aku rindu kamu Rindu untuk mengusikmu… Sekali buat dirimu merajuk buat aku tersenyum… Lembutnya jiwamu sayang… Tahu lah kamu bahawa diriku inginkan perhatian yang penuh… Ingin di manja selalu… Sesungguhnya aku rindu kamu Tapi kini kau cuba menjauhkan dirimu dariku… Aku tahu aku puncanya.. Memang diri ini ada melakukan salah padamu, ampun maaf dipinta… Sememangnya tak ter...

Hatimu keras  Yang lembut adalah aku  Dirimu bahagia  Yang berduka adalah aku  Bibirmu mengukir senyum  Yang menangis hiba adalah aku  Kenapa tidak setitik yang ku rasa,  Ku lihat pada wajahmu  Tidak terolah dengan perilakumu  Tidak dikata oleh tuturmu  Aku menyalahkan diriku  Bukan kerana kesalahanku  Tetapi...  Kerana tidak melepaskanmu  Mungkin sudah sampai masa  Untuk ku fikir tentang diriku sendiri  Tanpa hatimu  Tanpa sentuhanmu  Tanpa wajahmu  Tanpa senyummu  Tanpa tawamu  Tanpa suaramu  Segalanya...tanpa dirimu...

bismillah, terduduk di sini memeluk diri menatap hingga mata terlelap meratap hingga senja kian gelap gian semakin nian menjadi lalu dan akhir waktu hanya tertinggal aku. dalam gelap dalam lelap mimpi itu datang lagi meneduhi diri sepanjang hari duduk di sisi bak seru illahi mengubat luka yang tak kenal erti henti. aman. damai. selesa tatkala dirasa. aku disapa ditanya dia, kenapa luka ini masih mengalir? kenapa tak dicuba ubati sendiri? kenapa luka ini tak kunjung kebah? dengan senyum aku berkata, luka ini aku simpan tuk kamu. agar sentiasa ada tuk kamu ubati. agar sentiasa kamu datang lagi. dia tersenyum duduk di sisi mengimbau hari hari dulu dulu yang tiada suara dari aku umpama si sugul yang duduk bak tunggul mungkin kini sudah berbeda walau pada aku ianya sama cuma serasanya aku, dia gembira. kini aku sedari masa sudah tiba masa tuk menyapa, menyapa siapa dia yang datang bila saat gelap saat lelap kini ...

Terkadang aku ingin menangis Aku tak tahu mengapa Mungkin kerana aku sedang merindukan seseorang Ataukah aku menangis kerana bahagia? Ataukah aku menangisi hidupku saja? Yang sangat rumit dan penuh cerita? Ataukah aku sedang merindukan keluargaku? Aku tidak tahu Aku yakin inilah jalanku Aku harus tegar Dan menunggu keajaiban datang

Di saat ku termenung Dia selalu ada untukku Di saat aku sedih Dia selalu menghiburku Sahabatku sangat sayang padaku Aku pun begitu, Tak ingin rasanya aku menyakitimu Mari kita bermain, bercanda sesuka hati Agar persahabatan kita akan selalu abadi

I've never been so sure of anything. It's like, I've finally come to understand the difference between dread and fear, and those nervous butterflies that everyone keeps talking about. You want to know how I know? Because when I'm with you, I feel those butterflies fluttering around inside of me. But they don't make me want to run the other direction, like the fear has done before.  If anything, they make me want to press myself as close as I can to you- skin to skin, heartbeat to heartbeat, because when I do that, the butterflies quiet their wings for a bit and they let me feel you. Feel all of you. And it's in those moments that I realize that the fear I feel is only surface level. It's the kind of fear you feel right before you turn on a bright light after hours of being in the dark- just a few seconds before you open your eyes to see something so beautiful, something you couldn't see before. For the first time in my life, I don't want to run ...

  When You Love Someone So Deeply They Become Your Life It's Easy To Succumb To Overwhelming Fears Inside Blindly I Imaged I Could Keep You Under Glass Now I Understand To Hold You I Must Open My Hands And Watch You Rise Spread Your Wings And Prepare To Fly For You Have Become A Butterfly Fly Abandonedly Into The Sun If You Should Return To Me We Truly Were Meant To Be So Spread Your Wings And Fly Butterfly  I Have Learned That Beauty Has To Flourish In The Light Wild Horses Run Unbridled Or Their Spirit Dies You Have Given Me The Courage To Be All That I Can And Truly Feel Your Heart Will Lead You Back To Me When You're Ready To Land  I Can't Pretend These Tears Aren't Overflowing Steadily I Can't Prevent This Hurt From Almost Overtaking Me But I Will Stand And Say Goodbye For You'll Never Be Mine Until You Know The Way It Feels To Fly So Flutter Through The Sky Butterfly Spread Your...

At times in the middle of work sitting on my cluttered desk, I find myself craving. I find myself craving for you, like I would crave for ice-cream or chocolate at times. I am quite notorious for my cravings among my friends. Usually late at nights I need to eat something sweet and I would just HAVE to get it. But you…come on now… I can’t eat up a human being! But that is exactly what I want to do at times. Consume your entire being. Take you in me—completely. I know it sounds absurd but I crave for you. I need you. I want you… all of you. So bad. It almost kills me to know that I can’t always have you the way I want you or whenever I want you. It’s getting too intense. The more you seem out of reach the more I want you. Please try to understand, you are like my sleeping pill. I need to take a dose every night before I can go to sleep. Otherwise I am an eternal insomniac. Sometimes I want to hold you so tight that it would hurt. And at the same time, I fear. I am afraid that...

I am not sure exactly why am I writing to you and why do I choose to write here. I suppose you will read this sooner or later, or maybe you won’t read it at all, and may be then you will understand. I think I write this for my sake as well… to keep some sort of record so that I can be reminded of this time in my weak moments. I wonder where we went wrong, I wonder what we did that takes us just a second to turn so cold from being all caring, loving and honest. The unpredictability that we have just gives me the chills. I wonder about the mood swings, the sarcastic comments, the whinnings and the downright awful fights. After weeks and weeks of efforts, I am forcing myself to accept that you were right. You were right when you told me that we can never take the middle road. It is always one extreme or another. Oh, how so much I wish we could take the middle road—at least I would still have the same friend. I cherish your friendship. More than anything else, I cherish o...

Sayang..  Apa yang ku katakan  Apa yang ku rasakan  Belum pernah dialami  Demimu segala ku kurniakan  Susah ku senangkan  Apa sahaja dipenuhi  Di hati ... Dan masih lagi engkau bertanya  Sejauh manakah cinta  Penjelasan ku sebenar-benarnya; Sampai, tubuh tak bernyawa  Sampai, ku ke pangkuannya  Biar jasad tak dilihat zahir  Cintaku kan tetapkan hadir  Andai dikurnia syurga  Kan ku tunggu di luarnya  Jika ditanya mengapa?  Jawapan ku menunggu..  Kau SAMPAI dahulu..  Mudahnya sekadar bermadah  Hingga kau meragui  Keikhlasan sanubari  Sedangkan racun pun kan ku telan  Andai kau menyatakan ia madu kepadaku  Oh sungguh..  Dan masih lagi kau bertanya  Sedalam manakah cinta?  Lafaz ikrarku buat selamanya...  Katakan sayang..  Bagaimanakah harus ku hidup.. tanpa dirimu Sed...

I wrote this quite sometime ago.. things are going okay now, with no complaint. But still I wanted to share one last beautiful memory of us.. 15 years 2 months 8 days = 5546 days ago..  Our first looks at each other, our first conversation, our first kiss. Our first hand written letter and our first real talk. I'll never forget. Never forget the feelings and how perfect everything was. We could be awake and talk about everything until the next morning, we could talk in the phone for hours without having any words left to say and we could lay down for a very long time and just stare into each others eyes without saying anything. Her lullaby's for me while I fall asleep most of the time.. It was love. Real love. We became closer and closer and when i thought it couldn't be better she whispered the three most beautiful words in my ear. She whispered "I love you" with a tear in her eye and said that she never thought she could have this feelings for a...

Mencipta rasa jiwa.  Menjelma rasa bahagia.  Ingin dicinta.  Atas bukan nama cinta.  Menjadi satu rahsia.  Menyekat seribu cerita dunia.  Indah tak terucap kata.  Atas kasih tanpa kecewa.  Rapatnya kita.

People… We love them, hate them, care about them, be friends with them, share them, compromise them, wish for them, crave them- however we feel about them we have to deal with them! Unfortunately there is no other way out. People are all around us. People are our family, our friends, our neighbors and people are complete strangers too. I wonder what makes them strangers and what makes them friends? I sometimes wonder how we should interact with people. True, that every person is different from the other and there are no rules laid out for the best way to interact with people and you have to give every friendship and relationship some time in order to answer that question. I know I am being redundant here, using the word “People” in every sentence but I don’t know, for some strange reason this word is just stuck in my head tonight. I can’t seem to be able to take it out neither do I find the words to explain my thoughts but I am trying. I just hope it makes sense. I loved some pe...

Down memory lane.. That morning started as usual.. As it was Monday so we had morning assembly.. I was sitting along the corridor of our classroom.. A fellow schoolmate walked pass.. I could smell that nice sweet scent which at that point I knew it was that famous talcum "Carrie" her pen fell in front of me, I picked it up hand it to her, she smile and thank me.. While I just nod.. A couple of weeks later, I was making my way to class walked pass the washroom... I heard like someone crying and sobbing real loud... So, curious, I walked in and saw her crying head against the sink... didn't really know what to do so I hand her a piece of tissue.. She took it.. wiped her tears and look straight into my eyes.. and me acting cool, just gave her a hug..  Was sweet but weird, for I've never ever done anything like that... That afternoon after school, while I was walking out our school gate I saw her standing by the trees with her friends... I heard her said, "...

Suram malam disulami dingin  Aku keseorangan menunggu pagi  Dalam gelap menahan angin  Yang dalam hati mahu dihalau pergi  Rasa ini diragut lagi  Walau cuma tinggal sisa  Luka lama beralih sisi  Terasa dihimpit terbenam seksa  Mungkin telah tiba pengakhiran  Di manakah permulaan, tidak ku ketahui  Legap haluan di manakah jalan?  Ku meraba melangkah  Dan masih terus mencari...

Layu cinta ini masih tidak berpenghujung Gerimis dan hujan tidak henti mencurah Kencangnya angin masih tak mampu membawa rasa ini pergi Ku tutupkan cerita setiap hari dalam tidurku Lapang dadaku cuma untuk lena Kesah minda tidak mampu dipadamkan dengannya Keluh makin membara dilampirkan dalam mimpi Hari yang baru cuma pada nama Setiap hela nafas masih berbaur namamu Setiap kerdipan mata masih terkilas senyummu Bila mungkin rasa ini akan berhenti Bila mana hati masih tidak rela Bila layu biarlah berganti Bila sang bunga sudah tidak suka

A glimpse of you Reminded me what air is supposed to do I'm breathless, yet so calm.

Oceans apart, day after day And I slowly go insane I hear your voice on the line But it doesn't stop the pain If I see you next to never But how can we say forever Wherever you go, whatever you do I will be right here waiting for you Whatever it takes or how my heart breaks I will be right here waiting for you I took for granted, all the times That I thought would last somehow I hear the laughter, I taste the tears But I can't get near you now Oh, can't you see it, baby You've got me goin' crazy  I wonder how we can survive This romance But in the end if I'm with you I'll take the chance I will be right here waiting for you

Tahu tak hati ni banyak imbuhan Perhatian, memerhati, berhati-hati Nak lagi? cari sendiri Tahu tak hati ni banyak maksud Sila rujuk pada perenggan sebelumnya Tahu tak hati ni banyak jenis perasaan Suka hati, makan hati, buta hati Tak setuju? Sila masuk darjah 6 semula Setiap orang mempunyai hati Hati yang berfungsi sebagai organ penting secara lahiriah, boleh dilihat dan disentuh Tapiiiiii.....(cam lagu Alyah plak) Orang tak selalu bercakap pasal hati ni kecuali hati yang tu ada masalah Hati yang dimaksudkan adalah... jeng jeng jeng... Cerita lebih nanti pun bukan nampak Tapiiiiii.... Hati inilah yang menunjukkan kekuatan seseorang Hati ini jugalah yang boleh mematahkan semangat seseorang Hati dan rasa 2 kombinasi yang dikawal oleh akal fikiran Bunyi pelik? Adanya rasa ini juga berimbuhan, perasaan Bunyi lebih munasabahkan? Hati sentiasa bersedia menyambut segala perasaan yang datang Tak kira sikit, banyak, lama mahu pon sekejap Raut wajah adalah papa...

Di sebalik kalbu Yang semakin layu Terbenam rasa rindu Terkunci suara hati Tiada siapa tahu Dimanakah kasih Tak seperti dulu Kata kau sayangkan ku Benarkah itu Walau kehadiranku hanyalah sementara Bukan salahmu sayang kira kau jatuh cinta Akan ku pergi jauh takkan kembali Salam maaf permisi Ku undur diri Kini ku bersara Dengan langkah baru Menyisi luka ini Kekasih... sekeras aku Terhiris kerna kamu Ku tinggalkan cinta Kisah yang berlalu Kisah kenangan kita

Ketika ini kurasakan kosong. Jiwa hambar. Namun fikiranku bercelaru. Perasaan yang dulunya seperti ombak dilaut yang gah memecah pantai, kini seperti air di kolah yang tak berpenghuni. Tiada arus, tiada kehidupan, tiada harapan. Warna sahaja sudah menunjukkan tiada lagi kemungkinan yang menceriakan. Berikan harapan baru, namun jika airnya masih sama ianya tak mungkin berubah. Setiap orang menginginkan kebahagiaan. Tapi yang pasti, ianya tidak akan lahir jika hanya satu pihak yang bertindak. Jika dahulu tutur kata yang sopan dan gurauan senda menjadi hidangan. Kini ianya telah diganti dengan herdikkan dan sindiran yang menyakitkan. Tingkah laku yang berbaur kebencian menjadi santapan yang terlalu perit untuk ditelan. Ternyata kau lebih bersedia untuk memulakan kehidupan baru. Bahkan kau telah ada pengganti yang lebih baik. Tinggal aku yang masih tertanya kenapa aku diperlakukan sedemikian. Tingkah lakumu begitu hodoh dimata orang bahkan telah memaku sebak dan sakit hati. Hatiku lu...

Hatiku luluh... Dari dulu aku fikirkan kau jujur Ternyata kau tidak Bukan pada aku saja Juga pada Tuhan Aku ikhlas mencuba segala yang mungkin Cuba mengikat persahabatan Tapi sebenarnya kau tidak sekali mencuba Aku semakin berkecil hati Tingkahmu pernah aku lihat seperti ini Pemberontakan emosi antara kau dan orang kau benci Sekarang aku sasarannya Bukan orang yang kau benci Tapi sebagai orang yang ada kepentingan Tali kau ikat semakin kuat Kau sorok dari pandangan Untuk kau dikatakan bangga dengan keadaan Kenapa? Menjaga hatikah? Kawan... Kau tidak paham apa maksud sebenar seorang kawan Kau palingkan kemurnian hak seorang kawan Hanya kerana kesalahan yang sekali Kau menghukum selamanya Rasa hormat kau hilang Tapi sedarkah kau Penghormatan akan diberikan jika kau pandai menghargai Tindakan kau sungguh kurang ajar Salah didepan mata tidak kau bersihkan Bahkan seperti menjilat ludah sendiri Aku akan masih menjadi kawan Sebab tiada orang faham hati ...