Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

It does not matter now, she thought. Nothing does. She will close her eyes and everything will disappear. The world. The tears. The pain. That was what she hoped for, that was what she believed in, that was what she had never tried before. Because if she tried and it didn't work, she would have nothing left to have faith in. Because if she closed her eyes and the pain were still there, she would be broken. She would be destroyed. Ruined. Quashed. But today she was ready to take that risk. Today she wanted to stick to that little hope that everything might be if not fine, but at least okay. Today she wanted to close her eyes. So what if there was a good chance that she might be knocked down and broken into pieces. How did it matter if nobody cared? How did it matter if even she did not care? Suddenly she noticed his picture on the table. It was an old one. She realized that she didn't remember when it had been taken. Five years ago? Six? She...

I didn't feel The fairytale feeling, no. Am I a stupid girl For even dreaming that I could. If it's not like the movies, Thats how it should be , When he's the one, I'll come undone, And my world will stop spinning And that's just the beginning. Snow white said when I was young, "One day my prince will come." So I wait for that date. They say its hard to meet your match, Find my better half. So we make perfect shapes. If stars don't align, If it doesn't stop time, If you cant see the sign, Wait for it. One hundred percent, With every penny spent. He'll be the one that, Finishes your sentences. 'Cause I know you're out there, And your, your love came for me. It's a crazy idea that you were made, Perfectly for me you'll see. Just like the movies. That's how it will be. Cinematic and dramatic with the perfect ending.

Would you marry yourself or someone like you? Do you like the person you are and what you have to offer, enough to marry yourself? I asked a friend who kept whinning over the past relationships he has had an kept sulking on it. People have this urge to complain without pondering over their true state of being. It is quite impossible for a self to evaluate the grounds self stands on. Obviously you can take a paper and a pen and jot points you are looking for in a partner. I have done it and it obviously is not too stupid. Stupid is when you compromise over all the points you tick and end up with a complete opposite, being hopeful that you can bring about that ‘tick’ in his life and it will start working magic thereafter. No magic happens in relationships . This is a blunt and harsh fact, none of us want to face. How does it work? what will work and what wont? How to pick a partner for marriage? Is it okay to kiss on a first date? Is it okay to hold hands? Is PDA bi...

You know how when you were a little kid and you believed in fairy tales, that fantasy of what your life would be, white dress, prince charming who would carry you away to a castle on a hill. You would lie in bed at night and close your eyes and you had complete and utter faith. Santa Claus, the Tooth Fairy, Prince Charming, they were so close you could taste them, but eventually you grow up, one day you open your eyes and the fairy tale disappears. Most people turn to the things and people they can trust. But the thing is its hard to let go of that fairy tale entirely cause almost everyone has that smallest bit of hope, of faith, that one day they will open their eyes and it will come true. At the end of the day faith is a funny thing. It turns up when you don't really expect it. Its like one day you realize that the fairy tale may be slightly different than you dreamed. The castle, well, it may not be a castle. And its not so important happy ever after, just that...

It's really not bout nothing, except for me and you It's all about drama, and love, and relationships And when the going gets tough, you deal with it And you don't ever, you never walk away from it You hold on, and be strong It's all about drama, and trust, and making it If your somebody, mess up, you take it in Don't let no body come between you you just stay with it And hold on and be strong And Hold on It's not about the stupid things that we say We're always saying stupid things anyway Its not about the secrecy or the lies Girl everybody got a secret to hide It's not about who was it, or was she, whose creeping on who Won't matter if the both of us lose It's really not about nothing, except for me and you Ain't about your pride Ain't about yourself It's about the two of you, and no one else Ain't about the hurt Ain't about the lies Ain't about the crazy things thats running through your mind It's about the love tha...

Is there a world for me? Is there a time to be free? When will I know that I have reached the point? Where we are one? Is it all or none? Lord do I make you cry? How do I live before I die? Where is my heart, what will I love? What will I follow? When everything is gone? When will I find my chance? I want to celebrate and dance. When will I know that I have reached the point? Where we are one? Is it all or none? You love me, why God You love me, why God do you love me? Ive been nothing but a blind man wandering

I can see the starts, I can feel the air, I can breathe my own name. You are not here anymore. When was the last time when you truly felt yourself? When you felt "I love me"or "I love my life". You who follow me since the beginning you all remember my love posts, my yearns, my longs, my all which was dedicated to "The Dragon". I was waking up and falling asleep thinking of him. Me, myself I dedicated my own person to him. I was breathing for him and maybe instead of him, I was asking the Universe to give me him back. I am glad he did not listen to me! My beautiful dreams are in the process of making them true and I still have long way to go but I am getting closer and closer and it does feel amazing! It does feel amazingly tremendous to be able to feel my own life, to remind myself my dreams and my yearns! Love is one of them, he is not anymore. I am writing this to tell you that you might have a long way to go to understand that no man ...