Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

I sit here under the flourescent lights, drowsy but finding the will to stay awake, and thinking. Simply thinking about the past, the future, but mainly the present. Do you ever do that? Ponder about how you got to where you are not only physically but also emotionally, how your heart somehow matched up with your head (finally). Years and years and years go by without even a whisper that time is passing until you suddenly glance at a photo a friend took, and notice age. Laugh lines creep up on you, they do not announce themselves but slowly come across the face, allowing the people who see you to know, She’s had a good life . Ten years ago I would not have pictured this life as my life. I’m sure at the time I wanted to live in a romantic city, be it Paris or New York, they were interchangeable and similar in the thought that those places would hold something for me in my future. Those places would create the life that I so dearly wanted. A smile creeps on my face as I think, how li...

I see you in a different light, candlelight, moonlight I see you in a different way, through different eyes, and it's so nice We were just friends, that's how it started You told me your secrets and I told you mine You were always there with a shoulder to lean on anytime Now something's changed, nothing's the same You're here beside me and... I see you in a different light, candlelight, moonlight I see you in a different way, through different eyes, and it's so nice I see you like I've never seen you before The way I wanna see you much more Tonight, tonight I see you in a different light You were the one I'd always turn to The one I could talk to, baby, the one I could trust Who'd have ever dreamed we would be here together making love The sweetest surprise has come to my life You're here beside me and... When did your kisses get so sweet baby It's such a sweet surprise to me To look into your eyes And see you in a different light, candleligh...

I’m suffering this week from a lot of things. I don’t handle being under pressure very well, but I won’t get into that crap. I took comfort that at the least, my Second Life was in tact in places my real life simply cannot be right now. I guess you can say that I took my friendships for granted. Okay… so it really wasn’t in a bad way. I mean, I expected that one of the greatest friendships I’ve ever known would always be there. Is that really such a bad thing to assume? I’m one of those people who doesn’t put a barrier between her first and second life. If I feel something for someone in Second Life, then I’m really feeling it. I feel like one of my friends really played on my emotions. I find myself feeling like I was always just a number to them… a body in the room, kept close in fear that the loss of my loyalty, could mean the loss of others. Well, they’re right… because that’s exactly what’s going to happen. The worst part is that they won’t really care. I’m just as easily replace...

We're all different. We have different needs and we need different things. What about love? What type of love do you want to have? Do you have one already? Does she/he complete you, or more you complete her/him? Do you feel fulfilled in your relationship? I've been just wondering lately... From my very own experience. From guys I have met and I have learnt now I think I know what I need from a man and what kind of relationship I would like to build in a future. Couple of years ago I thought all I want is amazing guy who will show me his love everywhere and on every level of the relationship. I though that you cannot overdose love and saying "I love you" or "I miss you". I was wrong. I had a relationship like that. For first year I liked it /I won't say I loved it - just liked it/, I felt special that a guy can lose himself in me so deeply. I thought I'm lucky. How foolish I was?! In the end I had an impression I couldn't breathe cos he was every...

First man I ever loved, ready to place my hand in yours Your eyes fill with tears, I know We've worked so hard to get here We say for better or worse What I mean in those two words is Here's to the nights that we spent crying The weight of the world hanging on our shoulders Here's to the days of bills unpaid And being afraid of getting older Jobs they came and went, so did most our friends Felt like the rain would never quit But you took my hand And we slow-danced through all of it And that's what love is It's a promise for a lifetime More than a ring on our finger It's more than tonight And our story, it's a chapter It's the day of "I do" and the happily ever after that So, everybody raise your glass

Firstly, thanks to all of you for coming – I know that most of you took time off work and travelled a long way to be here and I want to say how much it means to us to share our day with the family and friends that love us. I’d like to say a few words about Mama and Papa. They have been the best parents a girl could wish for and they are also my friends. Mama is the most amazing person and she taught me to be independent from a very young age. I’m sure B would NOT thank her for this as I am incredibly stubborn as a result - but it always made me aware that when I did get married, if I got married, it would be to the right man at the right time and that is certainly true. Thank you so much Ma. Papa on the other hand, my hero, taught me something that is invaluable; SPORT IS VERY IMPORTANT. This is something that I know will stand me in good stead in my marriage to B! It is said that you marry a man like your Father and if that’s true – then kind, generous, loving, caring, sup...

I've been working hard so long Seems like pain has been my only friend My fragile heart's been done so wrong I wondered if I'd ever heal again Just like all the seasons never stay the same All around me I can feel a change I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me Leave the past behind me, today my life begins A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin' I know I can make it, today my life begins Yesterday has come and gone And I've learnt how to leave it where it is And I see that I was wrong For ever doubting I could win Life's too short to have regrets So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget Only have one life to live So you better make the best of it I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me Leave the past behind me, today my life begins A whole new world is waiting it's mine for the takin I know I can make it, today my ...