Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

This ongoing endless need for the little things in life … ahhh my love I open my heart and all the little things you shall find…. As I sit back and try to comprehend the life of another soul, of another woman, of another heart in need of endless love … I can’t quite take it all in … but within what I do see, its only the simple little things this woman has grown so accustom to feeling the need or desire for … was it me, the fairy who was sent to fill those needs … even though we sleep the days in between … I will be there to kiss you when your waking, to kiss you as you come and cradle you as you lie sleeping and dreaming of the day we find our secret garden … and yet the fairy also sees much pain … so much unleashed love to be given … ahhhh if only my head could rest against you dear … if only I could smell the scent of your skin … the taste of your nectar and the essence of your soul … these things we dream of how wonderful they can be … But always remember this my love … I am a...

I seriously think this is another issues pertaining to the back then reason of raping for not covering up well. Well, I don’t think anyone should be advising a person on how they prefer living their sexuality preferences. An effeminate man is not necessarily gay. In today’s overwhelming fashion and overgrown socially inclined period, for as long as anyone does not offend a person's sensitivity culture or caused inconvenience to others. It should be fine. Humans are not all born straight and forcing them might turn out disastrous. God created the way we are and as much as we wanted to behave in a 'good' manner, we wouldn’t want to force ourselves into something that would harm others. There are lots of discreet people out there being straight but deep inside, they are not. Take note of that dear Mr. Authorities. If God is all powerful and created everything, then why would God have created something that He forbade? That's the thing I can never figure out about God. Th...

Very often I find myself speechless and totally unconscious of what I have to say or word it like when it comes to you. Everything I know and have practiced in my head starts to fall out of place and nothing makes sense when I deliver it in words, because with you I have too much to feel than to think and I can never explain that emotion. Sometimes this combination of feelings, letters, words, expressions, emotions gets stuck in my neurons and voice and churn on the inside of my stomach, aching to be spoken, aching to be appreciated and aching to be reciprocated, but speechlessness and so much love for you in me makes me fear what if and it never does make sense after that. I have loved you and I will one day work up the strength to tell you everything blankly without the echo in my heart distracting me and leaving me insanely dumb!

I stumble upon her Dragon blog today.. Reading through it I felt a little jealous and cried a little too. Why jealous? I don't know.. Why cry? I don't have the answer to that either. I will keep reading her blog, every post. Silently. Secretly. Someday, I hope she would take a second look at me. Maybe, someday I can make her happy too. Maybe, someday she will always have a piece of me too. but, until that fine day.. I'll always be around.. Waiting patiently.. Maybe Someday Somewhere The Dragon, The Butterfly will meet half way through life.

2004 Well, as if I really gave a shit what people thought, but here’s something to discuss that I thought might be of interest to people even if they didn’t agree with it. HO MO SEX UA LI TY . Have I scared enough people with that word yet? How about these- lesbian, gay, dyke, fairy, butch, and the ever constant if not uncreative and insulting… homo. How am I doing so far??? Well here’ something else to stir up the senses, how about Gay pride not being fit for the Parliament or the President? Now I know some of you, in your ‘orang batu’ views still find homosexuality a horrible thing (unless of course, gentlemen, it’s two supermodel blonds-correct me if I am wrong with that assumption please). But let’s skip to the 20th century. Even if we didn’t, homosexuality would still be here because it was even in this world when Shakespeare was around, and even further back then that. I find the idea that people can be so close minded as to say that homosexuality is unacceptable and a taboo,...

Ever wonder why we fall so deep in love It feels as though it was sent from above Ever wonder why we listen to that sad song Questioning ourselves if this love is wrong Ever wonder why her smile brings you bliss Wondering if you’ll ever get that one kiss Ever wonder why her touch makes you shiver Just knowing she’s around even makes you quiver Ever wonder why you feel so alone Without her with you feel unknown Ever wonder why she’s scared to be with you Just to give you the chance is all she has to do Ever wonder why things seem too hard She’s been hurt before so she’s on guard Ever wonder why nothing matters anymore When you think of her your eyes start to pour Ever wonder why things don’t work out You find yourself alone and in a pout Ever wonder why you haven’t met a special girl Love seems to through you in a giant whirl Ever wonder why you make yourself so sad You see couples and wish it was someone you had Ever wonder that just maybe it will come true You just have to patient you...

Never say I love you If you don’t really care Never talk of feelings If they aren’t really there Never hold my hand If you mean to break my heart Never say forever If you ever plan to part Never look into my eyes If you are telling me a lie Never say hello If you think you’ll say goodbye Never say that I’m THE one If you dream of more than me Never lock up my heart If you don’t have the key