Life is Irrecoverably Wasted ...

Sometimes people talk to me about love. And so I listen and try to remember about the magic and the glory of love. I listen and try to recall when I was bathed in the blazing heatstroke of love. I try to remember the moment that I was standing in the sweltering noontime of love, feeling the heat and the direct rays that blind you, that paralyze you, that envelope you. It is as if there was never shade in your life. It is as if you never stood under a tree away from the sun. It is as if you were never anywhere but here where you are now. And you can’t imagine being anywhere but this place, in this searing heat as you are now. But one day, you find yourself standing in the shade and wonder how in the world you ended up here after all. You are now either divorced or widowed or just quietly removed from the sun. And here you stand, draped in cloaks that cover you from head to toe, making it rather impossible to feel the sun even if you somehow made it out of the shade and wandered by chanc...

 May you attract someone who speaks your language so you don't have to spend lifetime translating your soul.

If someone is really into you, you won’t be left wondering if you matter. You won’t have to beg for a text, wait for a call, or question your worth in the silence. Love doesn’t make you feel forgotten. Care doesn’t come with excuses. When you are a priority, you are chosen not once, but again and again, even in the smallest moments.

My fingers have been itching to type!!! Anyways, not sure if it’s the same for everyone, but it seems like time accelerates as we age – 2008 sure passed in a blur for me! Some of us tend to reflect and ponder at this time of year… What lessons have we learned? What are the things we need to improve on? How can we make 2009 a better and rewarding year? I’m sure we all have a list of things we want or need to do! But now back to year 2008… The Good I’m so glad I traveled to a few places this year. I’m grateful for the new experiences. I hope to be able to explore more next year! (Gotta fill up my new travel scrap book hehe) The Unexpected Surprise I think that the most profound thing I discovered this year would be the new experiences that brought me to a world I never even knew existed. It awakened my soul, opened up my heart and made me feel things beyond what I knew possible. Thought I’ve been there…Thought I’ve done that… But I was so-so wrong! The Lesson Sometimes thin...

I may look normal, but deep down I wanna be an Octopus so I can slap eight people at once. 🐙

I spent months trying to understand, trying desperately to love. At first, thinking I might be in love with you, but it felt like I was drowning, the water was warm so it almost felt cold not at all enjoyable. But then, you said, "Please, give us a try", and it was like the warm water turned to ice and lungs started to jam up and I couldn't breathe. I was struggling, kicking, failing to get to the top, because my heart felt dead. My limbs felt frozen in place, and I have no clue how I reached the surface. But I did, and the first breath I took was so painful, and the second, and the third. Eventually, I could hold myself up but I was still shivering for a while, even after I dragged myself out of that water. I spent 6 months, trying desperately to pull myself up, I was frozen all over. Though you’re on the other side of the world, you keep coming back, keep torturing me, keep winding me up. I realize I can’t pretend that you mean anything to me, I can't...

It’s when I’m sitting in a room all alone yet so close to you that I scream I love you. I am never full of words when I want to tell you how much I love you and how much I miss you that I want to just drag you out of my dream and make you a reality, and that I’m still in love with you. It’s when I’m in bed tucking myself to sleep that you instantly pop into my head and I grab my phone to dial to you but I hang up because I don’t want to give my self away to the thought that you might not pick up and and if you do you might be thinking "Who the hell are am I and why the heck am I calling you so late?" scares the shit out of me!. I would trade a thousand tomorrows for just one yesterday. Then I could just call you to tell you goodnight and smooch you. It’s when I cry myself to sleep at night and it hits me how much I would give to hold you at that very moment. It’s when I think about you that I realize no one else in the world is meant for me. And yes I wish you wo...