No Matter What ..

I wrote this quite sometime ago.. things are going okay now, with no complaint. But still I wanted to share one last beautiful memory of us..

15 years 2 months 8 days = 5546 days ago.. 
Our first looks at each other, our first conversation, our first kiss. Our first hand written letter and our first real talk. I'll never forget. Never forget the feelings and how perfect everything was. We could be awake and talk about everything until the next morning, we could talk in the phone for hours without having any words left to say and we could lay down for a very long time and just stare into each others eyes without saying anything. Her lullaby's for me while I fall asleep most of the time.. It was love. Real love.

We became closer and closer and when i thought it couldn't be better she whispered the three most beautiful words in my ear. She whispered "I love you" with a tear in her eye and said that she never thought she could have this feelings for anyone. It was the best moment of my life. I was in love. Terrible in love.

We talked about how our apartment would look like, how many babies should we have and that we are going to have a little kitten. Then we laughed for hours about what we just said.
We talked about everything and we laughed, cried and did things together. That was life. You were life. You were the best partner and everything would have been meaningless if you weren't in my life. I would go to the moon, travel round the world and count all the stars. Just for you.

We were so equal you and me, but different at the same time. We had something that other people just could dream of.

I'll never forget how you said I was beautiful when i looked the most terrible than ever. And I'll never forget how special you made me feel.

Every time I got a text message from you my heart stopped and every time I saw your name on the caller id I got a smile on my lips. You were mine.

But things changed. I can't count the sleepless nights and how many tears that have fell down on my cheek. I can't count how many times my heart got in thousand pieces and when everything felt meaningless. I have been so loved by you, but you have hurt me so badly at the same time. I never thought we would come to this part in our relationship were we don't show any respect and neither can live with or without each other. But now we stand here and don't know what's right or wrong. The only thing I know is that I'll always love you, no matter what.

Let's be honest. Sometimes there is nothing harder in life than being happy for somebody else.

I would rather have three minutes of wonderful than a lifetime of nothing special.

Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game..

I Never got the chance to say Thank you, thank you for loving me. Thank you for all the beautiful memories shared. Thank you for showing me that life isn't so bad after all.. You showed me the world I'd never seen, made me smile when you were not even there.

I have to add that.. you.. oh baby, you are just Simply Irresistible ◕‿◕