People Always Leave.... But sometimes they come back

Once i have read this thought somewhere and i quite liked it: There comes a point in your life when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will.

Now i am thinking when this point comes and how do i know this?

We all happened to lived in the century where most communication is done over the net. It is not like we dont have a life in "Real" world. Just the limits of REAL are different now. And many can say that their best friends live not the next door but in the other city, the other state, the other country. And they even might add they have never ever seen them in person. Like how does it matter anyways if there was some face-to-face interaction because there is this spark between you when you know you can always rely on these people.

Friendship means a world, it is like FAMILY, just a little bit different and no blood relation. But then it is all and everything when it comes to the point of being for each other in any kind of circumstances.

Just that you know that someone will catch you when you fall, he/she will dry your tears and say it all is going to be alright even if you both know it will not. This someone will pretend to be cheerful and happy just to make you feel good, will send you text messages, forward mails and give you missed calls at least once in a day. They will follow you even if you go through hell because what is the HELL for true friendship? And you will always know that they are there to prevent you from doing stupid and senseless things and when you still do these things, they will be there either to say "I told you so" or rather to cry with you or to laugh with you over these matters.

And more than that - you are willing to give all these in return to them because you too care and because they so much deserve it. So what if you have never seen your friend other that on pics, and heard the voice only over the phone. How does it matter? Because whatever you feel is real, because the happiness they bring into your life is real, even the fights you have are REAL.

But then the point comes when things change. Like they become busy, give you less time, forget to call, don't reply to your messages. And then the thought crawls into your mind - is it really the way it should be? Is it this eternal friendship you both took a vow for?

Days go by and then you talk less and less and you realize that the other person has their own life and you somehow feel you don't fit in. Is this the point when you realize who really matters, who never did, and who always will. And does it mean that you have been stupid to trust with your deepest secrets and desires someone you have never met? Does it mean you cannot trust other people who you met online because there will be another point when they will eventually leave too? You know like People Always Leave. And those you meet online leave even sooner than you expected them? Though i guess you never expected, right? Remember this Eternal Friendship Vow...

How do you know if you can trust someone to be your friend forever? Is the whole attachment-thing just a trap for emotional fools who take things seriously? The ones who believe if they care, the other party will care too? It is not like I do not understand that people might be busy and sorting stuff out, we all have to deal with our own problems and do not want to overload our friends with them. But does it mean that whatever is online will remain online only? Like "Out of Sight - Out of Mind." And since you never were in sight, you will never stay in mind?

Not sure I believe in all this. I mean most probably i belong to that 'Emotional fools" - type who believe in eternal friendship, devotion, dedication, attachment and caring. But well, it is so tough to let go if you were once close. Because there is this attachment that has been growing for months and you can't just ignore it.

How do you know if whatever you have with them is for real?

Not just a time pass for them. Not just a time pass for you?

How do you know they think about you when you are not online?
Do you think about them when they are not there?

Can you feel this attachment to them?
Are you sure they have any attachment for you?

How do you know it is about friendship?
Do you know this?

If i say i don't care if they have it, it will be a lie. Because i care but sometimes i have this doubt that it is the same for people i truly care about. Should i ignore this feeling? I don't know. Even if someone told me i should ignore, i am not sure i would be able to.

Because Me is Me and even if people leave, they are always welcome to be back.

Why?

Because once upon a time, we were good friends. And we have gone through a lot of stuff together, good and bad. But it would not matter anymore because if they need me, I am there.

Any time.
Any place.
Anywhere

I got you..


*Images - from "One Tree Hill"