Hurt
You reach for your cell phone but you can’t call.
You try to write a letter but you can’t collect your thoughts.
You try not to think, try to forget, try not to miss, but you fail every day, every hour, every second.
You believed that friendship is forever. You trusted to no limits. You knew who to rely on. And now it all is gone. And only memories haunt you.
Memories of them being with you when you felt depressed and low.
Memories of them teasing you, laughing with you, staying up late in nights just for you.
Memories of them being in your life.
Memories of a different life.
Because now it is all gone.
Now the friendship which was meant to be for a lifetime seems to be the part of your past only.
Now the person who you thought you know has become the person who you used to know.
Now you can’t stop thinking of what was wrong and why it all happened.
Now nothing is the same without them in your life.
You refuse to believe it is happening.
You refuse to accept they are not a part of your life anymore.
You just want everything to be back to NORMAL.
It is just that NORMAL is different this time. And no matter how you try, you can’t fix it. You can’t…
You promise yourself you won’t miss them anymore.
You promise you won’t care.
You promise you’ll stop bothering.
But YOU.JUST.CANNOT.
It won’t work. It won’t help. It just won’t.
There is nothing you wouldn’t do to get them back in your life. But maybe they just wouldn’t want to be back… because it was you who screwed up. It was you who walked away. It was you who said friendship is over.
They just didn’t hold you. They just didn’t say a word. And this silence hurts more than anything.
But maybe you deserve it. Deserve to be hurt. Deserve to be left. Deserve to stay alone.
And this mix of emotions – pain, guilt, sadness – keep you thinking.
Thinking about the way it was supposed to be and the way it is.
The way you wanted it to be and the way it turned out.
The way that you don’t want to accept and refuse to believe.
But this way it hurts like hell and you just can’t help it.
Song of the moment - Christina Aguilera "Hurt"
You try to write a letter but you can’t collect your thoughts.
You try not to think, try to forget, try not to miss, but you fail every day, every hour, every second.
You believed that friendship is forever. You trusted to no limits. You knew who to rely on. And now it all is gone. And only memories haunt you.
Memories of them being with you when you felt depressed and low.
Memories of them teasing you, laughing with you, staying up late in nights just for you.
Memories of them being in your life.
Memories of a different life.
Because now it is all gone.
Now the friendship which was meant to be for a lifetime seems to be the part of your past only.
Now the person who you thought you know has become the person who you used to know.
Now you can’t stop thinking of what was wrong and why it all happened.
Now nothing is the same without them in your life.
You refuse to believe it is happening.
You refuse to accept they are not a part of your life anymore.
You just want everything to be back to NORMAL.
It is just that NORMAL is different this time. And no matter how you try, you can’t fix it. You can’t…
You promise yourself you won’t miss them anymore.
You promise you won’t care.
You promise you’ll stop bothering.
But YOU.JUST.CANNOT.
It won’t work. It won’t help. It just won’t.
There is nothing you wouldn’t do to get them back in your life. But maybe they just wouldn’t want to be back… because it was you who screwed up. It was you who walked away. It was you who said friendship is over.
They just didn’t hold you. They just didn’t say a word. And this silence hurts more than anything.
But maybe you deserve it. Deserve to be hurt. Deserve to be left. Deserve to stay alone.
And this mix of emotions – pain, guilt, sadness – keep you thinking.
Thinking about the way it was supposed to be and the way it is.
The way you wanted it to be and the way it turned out.
The way that you don’t want to accept and refuse to believe.
But this way it hurts like hell and you just can’t help it.
Song of the moment - Christina Aguilera "Hurt"
Great way to express, as always. But dearie... your last post was a sad one as well... I do hope it's all fiction :) I don't want the sweetest blogger I want to be sad.
ReplyDeleteExpressions are BEAUTIFUL :)
Amazing you hit the right notes every time....I guess each and every living human can relate with this post as well as the previous one!!
ReplyDeleteYour words nomore seem like words...they tell a story...but at the moment I hope these words are fictive!!...They are way too sad...you can't stop your eyes welling!!I hope it is not about someone you know...
Tell me it is fiction!!
The post is amazing!!But next time something that makes you smile....plzzz!!! :)
I cried reading this.. so much sadness in you.
ReplyDeleteYou know we are just a phone call away...
A new day will dawn... this too shall pass...
**HUGS**
this hit me straight home.
ReplyDeleteTears rolling down as Im reading it...
and the song... made me cry even more.
I hope that things will be better soon.
if it helps.. I cried too while writing.
ReplyDeleteIf you're lost you can look and you will find me
ReplyDeleteIf you fall I will catch you I'll be waiting time after time ...
darling...
ReplyDeleteYou once said friends are forever no matter what.. and you will always be there as long as we want you too...
Dont push us away... we are here to stay...
~hugs~