Keep On Walking

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Someone once said, love does not walk away, people do. I will add, and they take love with them. It is like taking it out of an old box, folding it carefully, packing into a bag and taking it away from you. And you are left with nothing but pain, memories and a great feeling of a loss. A loss of something big. Something important. Something meaningful. Once it is gone, nothing else matters. The world is not the same anymore. You are not the same anymore.

And you find yourself thinking… more. Retrospecting… more. Wondering… more.

And months will go before finally you will be able to look back and realize how much time you have wasted just sitting there, sorting out the pieces of your heart according to the various degrees of pain you feel.

And months will go before finally you will be able to let go and you finally give another someone a chance. But it will be months later. And for now, here you are, stuck in the past, wishing it was the present.

Months will go before you realize quite a number of things.

You will learn that people always turn out how they promised they wouldn’t.

You will learn that forever does not really last forever and that feelings have their expiration date.

You will learn that people lie. You will learn that people leave. You will learn that some things are just not meant to be.

But most of all you will learn that memories fade. You will sit there thinking about time spent and promises made. You will remember all the happy smiles and all the cheerful moments. You will let the joys of the past put you into illusion of love and warmth. You will feel the presence of your loved one when you close your eyes, but when you reach for them, you will feel them slipping away. You will feel your memories fade.

And you will keep wondering how come that something so strong made you this weak. It will make you confused and lost. Lost to the world. Lost to yourself. You will take time to get over it. You will take time to adjust to a new reality. And then a moment comes when you start to pretend that everything is alright. Because people expect you to be. And because when the whole world thinks that you are fine, sometimes you forget for a while that you are not.

And you will learn new things again.

You will learn that people mistake your strength for ability to hide the pain deep inside.

You will learn that no matter how much you wish they could be, things will never be the same.

And you will learn that no matter how good you are, it does not guarantee a happily-ever-after.

But it all does not matter. It all will not matter. You will wake up every day and keep on walking. No matter how many pieces your heart consists now of, you will hold them all together, as a whole.


And you will keep on walking.

And even if it is damn painful to let go, even if it is the toughest thing in the world not to cry when it is the only thing you actually want to do, even then you still keep on walking.

Even when you know the past can’t become the present and surely can’t turn into the future, you still keep on walking.

Because you will also learn that after every storm will always come the sun. Be it weeks, months or years (God forbid!) the sun will come. Maybe not the way you expected it to be, but most probably the way it is meant to be.

Just keep on walking…

Comments

  1. RiverSoulJune 16, 2010

    this was just awesome..!!!

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  2. humble devilJune 16, 2010

    I remind myself all the time that some day it won’t hurt so bad, and as the days pass, no it doesn’t. Although there are still those moments, late at night, lying in bed alone and wish…

    I think the hardest part is accepting that it’s just over.

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  3. colleenroselleJune 16, 2010

    Poignant and so very wise, LadyB. I could feel the emotion in your beautiful words, and I rejoiced in the timeless, heartfelt message you expressed: keep on walking. It is true, love in one instant is the greatest and the worst of human states, yet surely we all experience both its wonder and its pain. And hopefully, we all make it through love’s turbulent waters, ready to start afresh on the other side.

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  4. AnonymousJune 16, 2010

    Interesting take. Time does heal all wounds, or at least lessen them, however.

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  5. AnnaJune 16, 2010

    Its all part of the learning process!
    Welcome back LadyB, hope all is well. Anna

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  6. Ms UnbelievableJune 16, 2010

    Very true. It’s the soul taken away and no matter days and nights it never changes coz the heart taken from you still will keep on beating inside that person even if they say I have moved on. That little bit of sweetness very much stays.

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  7. dragon keeperJune 16, 2010

    Oh oh…okay, let’s keep on walking, after the many heartaches and pains left by a love that walked away from us…that’s the best we can ever do…

    That is love and life in reality…

    Touching post as always LadyB..:) Thanks for visiting my space… Hugs and miss yah!

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  8. Chocolate lollipopsJune 16, 2010

    @RiverSoul
    thank you, I am glad you liked it :)

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  9. Chocolate lollipopsJune 16, 2010

    @humble devil
    You are right, the toughest thing in life is letting go of what you thought was real.

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  10. Chocolate lollipopsJune 16, 2010

    @colleenroselle
    Thanks, Colleen, for a wonderful comment. Love has both sides, a beautiful and an ugly sometimes, but that’s we, people, who make it this way. But what can we do when it makes us strong and weak at the same time?

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  11. Chocolate lollipopsJune 16, 2010

    @Anonymous
    I would not say time heals all, lessens is the right word here :) However we only should give time time to see how it works… and keep on walking :)

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  12. Chocolate lollipopsJune 16, 2010

    @Anna
    Thank you, Anna. All is well, just life is hectic these days. Hope you and your loved ones are fine :)

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  13. Chocolate lollipopsJune 16, 2010

    @Ms Unbelievable
    Agreed, some things stay forever no matter how much we pretend they are not there. Moving on however is not letting go completely, it is accepting that some things are not meant to be. And that’s the toughest thing ever.

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